October 18b- Love bitter and sweet

Dear October,

You make me face dilemmas and contradictions. I went for a drink with a guy I was in love with two years ago. He started giving me advice on my love life. Did I appreciate it? Yes and No.

Yes, a little bit, because I tried to check my reactions as if I were an observer. As if I were in your place, October, a month, passing by. And no, because the advice was presented in a bitter envelope. He told me that I don’t fight for what I want, and if I want someone, I don’t go all the way through.

Now, you might object, wait a second, why did you start talking about your love-life with him? Is he a close friend? Not exactly.

Even if we didn’t get along, I still like him for a number of reasons. For example, he has had experiences through which I can learn. But he is very judgemental of my ideas, projects and personality.

Today we run into each other, so, it seemed natural to have a drink and catch up.

He told me how well he is doing and about his summer holidays with his girlfriend. Maybe I got a bit jealous, or I needed to get even.

I told him I felt in love this summer.

He put himself in the place of a mentor and started giving me advice. I had it all wrong, according to him. Should I have run after my summer love to the end of the world? Am I too constrained by invisibleĀ bounds? That is, myself?

Maybe he’s wrong and right at the same time.

October 18- Plan without planning

Hello dear October,

I fell on this quote as I was looking for planning ideas and it seemed to answer my yesterday question: To Plan or not to Plan?

“We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us”.

Joseph Campbell

It seems to me there is a temporality for the artist, who needs to get in touch with inspiration, and another temporality for the artistic event organizer. If I am both, and there are more and more people with different dimensions- I need a balance between the two šŸ™‚