July 20- Habits: to keep or change?

Hello July,

as I went for lunch to my Sunday café, or Head Quarters, I felt a need for change. B, the guy I was secretly in love with  -maybe it was a secret only for me :-)- was not there. I haven’t run into him for the last two weeks and there was hardly any action; even for someone who dwells in romantic fantasies.

One of my friends commented on my weekend habits; I have two favorite cafés for lunch. I move in a delimited territory for coffee, not bigger than our arrondissement, or neighborhood. Paris is huge, the world is big. Why do I evolve in a small surface? Is it my fascination for B?

Actually it is more than that. Having one or two favorite places gives me a feeling of belonging, even if it is not “real”. A café is a business, not a family, or a group of friends. But still, a neighborhood has its own “soul” and “spirit”.

Cats apparently, get attached to places. And like to mark out their territory for chasing. And not only cats. Maybe I am this type of animal.

At the same time, animals change territory according for example, to weather conditions. They might migrate if what they need in order to stay alive, is not provided anymore.

Maybe it is time for me to change some of my habits and approach.

Is it time to chase in a new territory?

Anyway, my trip to the South of France is approaching 🙂




July 19- A reason to get married?

Dear July,

was it serious of me to propose to someone because he is cooking well? I don’t know. I went to a dinner party where a friend of a friend cooked some delicious dishes, everybody loved. Good cooking is not something you find easily these days. I told him, and he seemed to reflect on the idea quiet seriously. He asked what are my talents. What could I bring to this marriage? He is looking for someone to iron his shirts. (He is Italian by the way). I told him I don’t iron well. I am also not a very good housekeeper. But I tell stories.

He also wants to watch “Game of Thrones” without being interrupted. Fair enough. I don’t watch tv myself, but if we manage to get two rooms, that would do. He doesn’t like women who talk a lot. I don’t think I am one of them, I’d rather blog.

Now for the rest, such as attraction, we didn’t bother much. It wasn’t the case for many generations before us. Would he get something in this kind of bargain? I don’t know. It’s up to him to find out.

I need to try more recipes to make sure before I commit myself 😉

Should we be down to earth when it is a question of marriage or expect a romantic feeling that sweeps us off our feet? Is falling in love unrealistic?


Awesome Wedding Cakes Image Picture


July 18- Brave Heart Award

Dear July,

have you heard the news? My blog has been nominated by Dazzling Whimsy  at dazzlingwhimsy.com for the Brave Heart Award! I feel honoured and grateful. But what is more, it gives me courage to be brave! (http://dazzlingwhimsy.com/2014/07/16/brave-heart-award/)

Dazzling Whimsy is searching for sunshine in an obscure world. And this is definitely courageous and beautiful.

Now, in order to abide by the rules, I will answer a series of questions:

  • Tell us a little bit about your blog. Who designed it?
 I have used the Reedle Theme from WordPress. The photo that serves as background pictures two beautiful trees full of flowers at the Luxembourg garden in Paris, where I live, in April. It is a photo that I have taken myself and I love a lot.


  • What is the title and description of your blog?
 April4June6: A journal of self-transformation. It started as a challenge I undertook: to write a form of daily journal for three months, as a tool to change certain aspects of my life: create prosperity and allow a loving relationship. I wanted to see change in three months. The incentive was a difficult time with a “wannabee boss” who appears in some of my posts. But it also helped me realize there are a lot of things I love about my life and myself :-). My style is a form of “dialogue” with the different months of the year. As a mentioned in my “update”, something concrete happened in this period: my project passed the first step of an evaluation at the end of June. But at the same time, this blog is an excuse to do what I love: WRITE. And to share some thoughts and questions on everyday life, with those who would like to accompany me. I extended the period of the blog to another three months 🙂


  • Who is your intended audience? At the beginning, my intended audience was myself and two of my best friends. Now, everyone who would take an interest in it is welcome! I am very grateful of fellow-bloggers who have read and commented on my posts. This dialogue has taken me a step further and made my life more beautiful! Thank you again!


  • How did you come up with the title of your blog? I just wanted to write for three months, my challenge was from April to June, and I added 4 since April is the fourth month and 6 for June.


  • Give us an interesting fun fact about your blog. I have been writing a post a day for three months and a half now 🙂 and intend to continue with the same rythm for another three months.


  • What other blogs do you own and what makes them alike? This is my first blog, but I also have a site related to my other activities, that I will reveal in the future.


  • Do you have any unique talents or hobbies? I think we all have talents and hobbies in a way. I write fiction and poetry. My first novel is already submited in different publishing houses, but it is not in english, yet! As to hobbies, my favorite is having a coffee in Paris or elsewhere, discussing with people I love or by myself, while watching people passing by. Reading of course, now blogging also, if this can be considered a hobby. I also love to dance!


  • What can we expect from you in the future? To be present in the blog-sphere and to tell you about my novel that I will translate in english 🙂 I should start this August.


  • Do you have any tips for readers or advice for other writers/bloggers? I think it is important to write because it helps self-reflection and it allows us to become conscious of certain ideas that could have passed unoticed. Gettinf feedback is also so important! To be brave and accept some vulnerability. Being vulnerable demands a lot of courage!



I would like to nominate the following blogs for the Braveheart Award:

Each blog represents for me a different dimension of a “Brave Heart”

1. http://kimberlyharding.wordpress.com/2014/07/18/back-to-my-husband/ for bringing to the surface elements that lie in our collective inconscious, through her art and posts. I linked to her last post that I find absolutely great, talking about herself and her love for her husband.

2. http://stringofpearls2.wordpress.com/about/ for her courage to put herself on stage and share her world with us : “I am addicted to beauty, I love too deeply, and I’m a scarred human being with a hard past. I am on a journey that I hope to share transparently with anyone who stumbles here”.

3. http://labiblioafronebrulepas.com/about/ for her wonderful purpose to create an African library that cannot burn: “Anne KEDI SIADE, young cameroonian Lady passionate of Africa, and filled with the vision that this continent will be big and determined to be part of it”. I just love people with a purpose!

4. http://julesgemstonepages.wordpress.com/about-me-sort-of/ for being so much more than  “…an old leather boot trying to walk on a catwalk and nobody cares because I’m not a plastic mock animal high heel shoe.”

5. http://bucketlistpublications.org/about-me/ for sharing : ” portrays the beauty and limitless possibilities of this world”, but also the fears and insecurities that allow us to be brave. And I refer to this post that I liked a lot: http://bucketlistpublications.org/2014/07/18/drowning-fear/

6. http://alygeorges.wordpress.com/about/ for her purpose to “…share my experiences on this site, so I can motivate someone; help them understand that there’s so much to life than just resigning oneself to misery”

I think the rules are to answer the above questions, post the award, link back to who gave it to you and nominate others.

Brave Heart Award

Thank You Ronovan from RonovanWrites.wordpress.com


July 17 – my night with the San Francisco ballet

July dear,

did you see me running on the streets of Paris towards the Châtelet theater? I was late, the bus didn’t follow its usual trajectory, the metro took long, and it was hot, hot, hot.

I got in with the “retardataires” the latecomers, until the entr’acte.We could watch and listen to the music, but we were behind a sort of glass. The artists couldn’t listen our applause.

It was wonderful, short scenes that stimulated the imagination … I didn’t read the program, so I made the craziest associations: a scene on the metro, musicals of the 50s, african and brazilian dances, couples in love, nature…

During the entr’acte I got my seat and chatted with some friends who were present, on their future holiday plans. J, a Turkish friend living in Paris, wanted to buy a ticket for Barcelona, on a weekend of March 2015. He incited us to do the same because the price was low. The Italian present, told him he doesn’t even know if he is going to be alive on that date. So what is the rush to book a weekend in almost a whole year? I objected that things might change in their personal lives and that we might need to count with other people too.

I told him that I plan other type of events -artistic projects- but I want to be more flexible on holidays.

As for our Italian friend, I don’t know if he is a pessimist.

Maybe he wants to invite serendipity.

J considered our reaction strange, a sign that we don’t want to project ourselves into a long-term future.

For me, it is a question of time perception, related to culture but also relationships and life. This perception can form a filter in everyday communication.

It is as if we communicated trough the glass , in the way the latecomers were separated from the main theater hall. In order to meet, we need to get to the other side.

And change our perspective.

July 16- Happiness, Confidence, Comparisons

Dear July,

do you ever compare to June and August, or rather to November and January? Just a question… I was relfecting on comparisons on May 3 and my point was that comparisons are important, but we need to be careful who to compare with.

We categorize certain things by comparing them with something else that remains stable. That is how we take mesures. And we know we have grown. Or gained weight. We are taller, shorter, fatter, thiner, than before, or more, less, than X, Y, Z. Should this tell something about our value? Not particularly. Deciding that something is more valuable than something else, is an arbitrary decision.

Today I compared myself with someone who is working on the same corridor of the Platform, (the network of artistic event organizers), and I felt some sort of injustice. Because he had a contract and I didn’t. But then I was happy to have more freedom and my own way with things. Did I have to do that? Why not just say hello and go my way?

Because he is new, and wanted to understand who are the other people around. What is their role. Compare.

What if I were the tallest, most beautiful, richest, most talented -according to a number of criteria- most powerful person of the corridor? Or of the whole floor? Or of the Platform?

Would this be enough to assure my self-confidence and make me happy?

What is it compared to the whole universe?

Maybe there is another way to assure confidence and to look for happiness 😉

P.S. https://april4june6.wordpress.com/2014/05/03/may-3-the-awakening/


July 15- Update of the first two weeks

Hello July,

here you are, already in the middle, and I need to give you an update of what I have been up to, in case you were not reading my posts thoroughly 😉

Some important things have already happened : for example, the big art exhibition, last week. And some others will take place in the second half: the artistic event in the South of France, close to my hometown. The event takes place on July 26 and I am to prepare everything from Paris because I will only get there on the night of the 24. I also had a setback, the small project I love that was rejected, but fortunately, my feelings were dissolved in the advice of wise friends and the rhythm of last week.

I am also to prepare for the second round of the application that was successful by the end of June.

What is the best way to approach all these tasks? In this very moment I prepare a soup in the kitchen, because the pasta I had earlier wasn’t enough. Or the olives, that accompanied the glass of wine that I had in the company of a friend.

I am sorry for not being respectful, it is that I need to let some steam off after the art exhibition last week. Even if it was a great experience, presenting myself to new people and having to deal with thousands of issues can be overwhelming.

The celebration of the downfall of the Bastille arrived on time for this!

I wish I could delegate!

But there are things that can only be done by myself, such as writing, and loving!

(some ideas in: http://freelancecrunch.com/5-valuable-strategies-to-help-freelancers-prioritize-tasks/)

Methods to prioritize freelance tasks



July 14- Fireworks for July 14 celebration!

Dear July,

it is a national celebration today, of the French Revolution in 1789! It was the day the revolutionaries took hold of the prison of Bastille. Human Rights, Republic, and other such ideas are associated to this historic period : Freedom, Equality and Fraternity, still important objectives to remember! “Imagine all the people…”

And to celebrate, what is better than fireworks?

There is a parade in the morning, concerts and finally, at about 23.00, the fireworks!

On my side, I haven’t followed all the festivities because I woke up really late after an intensive week at the art exhibition center. And another intensive week to come for the event I am organizing in the South of France.

So I thought the proper way to celebrate is to take it easy, and went close to the Champ de Mars, where you have an excellent view of the Eiffel Tower, where the fireworks are fired from! In order to be in the right “ambiance”, with all the people – Parisans, people from other parts of France, military, and of course tourists – at the streets and the cafés. The weather was perfect, agreeable but not hot, so it was great to be out and enjoy.

I somehow felt optimistic: something good is coming, though I don’t know exactly what. I need to focus on what is important, and concentrate my energy in this direction. An objective is like a compass, we have to keep walking.

Some actions are like fireworks, others take time to mature. But they leave their marks.

In our unique style, we are here to make a difference with our presence.


14 juillet feu artifice Tour Eiffel multicolore, Paris © Groupe F - Thierry Nava

July 13- Last day at the Art Exhibition: to experience and to win

Dear July,

today has been a day full of all sorts of experiences at the art exhibition: should I talk about my feet that hurt again, -and it’s partly my fault: high heels :-)- or the human contact with all these artists?

I was running around all day, in meetings, photo-shootings, cocktail parties, it was great! I even got a present from a Japanese artist who was exposing her work. Something for the house she told me, it is so beautiful wrapt I don’t want to open up and see what it is… maybe some type of scent… Isn’t it great to get to a meaningful discussion with someone from a different culture in a lapse of time? And isn’t it funny to have communication difficulties with people who share the same background…

Anyway, these contacts are part of the wonderful side of the art world. I felt happy for having participated in the organization,  made new friends, and maybe this will help me in terms of career: when there is a good dynamic something should come out of it!

After the last cocktail of the day, I knew I wouldn’t be needed any more at the exhibition, so I said goodby and instead of going to rest, I decided to watch the end of the World Cup. The ambiance of the little café-bar next to my place was quiet a difference from the “ambiance” of the art exhibition.

People were cheering both sides, it was not clear if the majority was for Germany or Argentina. Personally, I was more sympathetic to Argentina, but I guess the German team played well.

In this type of games, there is a winner and a looser, nothing in between, even if the second team gets a silver medal. We get the impression that a moment could have a huge influence in people’s position. This is thrilling, and probably what makes people watch.

Is it like this in everyday life?

Are there different ways to experience and to win?




Champions Celebrating



July 12-Enjoying my neigborhood

Dear July,

the rhythm of my last days was intensive enough to make me wake up at 11.00 today. I was supposed to get to the art exhibition, but found out the debriefing was not going to take place, so I could skip it.

The day started with coffee with my neighbour next door, one of my dearest friends. We had to catch up for the last few days: a lot of things have happened for both of us.

Just after, I went for lunch at my usual Saturday café. There is something about this place that reminds me of a family’s living room. Probably because it is owned by a real family. Perfect for relaxing 🙂

I thought I should wear something colourful and flowery to give me energy, but was sleepy and all I did was to follow from time to time the conversation of a mother and daughter who were having lunch beside me. They were to participate to a baby’s baptism. There would be a dinner party after. Should the adolescent girl be seated with the children or the adults?

The next step was a meeting with another friend at another café of the same street. We sat outside, observing the passers-by. The new generation of toddlers was present, parading with their parents and their tiny scooters.

And just because it is good to get up and exercise from time to time, we went to yet a third café of the neighborhood and a found a new spot to continue the conversation.

Just by sitting there and talking, we participate to the life of the street, we remake the world, in our conversation and imagination!


toddler girl on a scooter in a park in spring day photo

July 11- Inspiration and the key to success

Dear July,

I have been running here and there, I have “pété plus haut que mon cul” according to some people, which means that I have probably aimed for the moon and landed on a star, but in a less refined way, according to the French colloquial expression. I wouldn’t want to shock your delicate ears by translating this. (The second word refers to one’s bottom, the everyday word for it 🙂

One of my smaller projects, that I was particularly attached to, was refused. I considered it as the key to open the door for a job I like. Usually I would have felt discouraged, and thought that despite my hard work and efforts, things didn’t advance in a positive direction. That would have been my reaction in the past. I would have felt trapped, not knowing how to reach my goal. I would have allowed some self victimization, and an idea that there is one key to open the door to success, that for some reason I can’t find. A key that is only available to a privileged circle? I would also have doubted myself and my capacities.

But this is not how I feel now. Starting a blog, was also a way to catch me when I would get into some downward spiral of thinking.

Is there a hidden key for a treasure somewhere, out of reach? And is this treasure my goal, that would allow me to feel succesful, loved and accomplished? Or a key for another desired outcome, for example a desired partner? Would this or that person concentrate the qualities I want, and would he be out of reach for some reason?

But I am a treasure myself! There is something valuable I can offer to enrich the world, and to make a partner happy. I want to contribute my part in the continuity of life. And I need like-minded and like-hearted people to fulfill this goal. Our common goal.

Where are my partners? Here and there. Everywhere.

In this huge artistic exhibition where I am involved until Sunday afternoon, I got to meet some wonderful people, artists coming from different parts of the world. I became friends with a Japanese, inspired by the way people have transformed the trauma of the tsunami into growth. Another one from Venezuela told me about the unstable situation people experience and the research for inner strength.


My concerns seemed so small compared to that! I really admired them!