June 13- Soulmates

Dear June,

Yes, I spent the first part of the day dealing with practical questions: organization of the South of France event, but also of my household: supermarket, cleaning up a little bit. This is the advantage of being a free-lance, you can dispose of your time as you want. But that is very tricky, because you might do a lot, or not.

Looking at passers-by at the café, is also a way to do something important. If it is an active attention, a creative posture.

Anyway, during the second part of the day I adopted this creative introspection. I kept thinking about the “image” I project to men. Yesterday, a colleague made me think with what she said: that I could give the impression of an “amazon” ready for a battle- I wondered if this is how I feel “inside”.

I asked an older man, in his 60s, he also had a similar impression. But he said that for him, this was only a mask. Because an amazon is taking what she wants, and I am waiting for the man to do something. And if I attract men who expect me to act, in an amazon way, things don’t go very far. At least I think this was his point.

T, the friend who was visiting last weekend, told me he could associate me to goddess Diana.

What do I make of this? Hmm, in a way I want people I am dealing with, to treat me with respect. Sometimes they are older and more “powerful” in terms of social position. And I like to be treated as an equal.

When it comes to my love life, I am grateful to attract potential partners. But not those I would like to engage into a serious relationship with. At least in the past, they were not what you may call a “soul mate”.

Is there a sort of harmony, between the person that I feel I am and the persona I project in my everyday interactions?

Partly yes, probably.

We have so many dimensions, and we engage in different sort of relationships with people.

But if I am defensive in my love life, I need to change.

I need to open my heart in order to meet another person in a deeper level.

http://www.wikihow.com/Know-if-He-Is-Your-Soulmate

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June 12- amazones, sweet women, goddesses

Hello June,

at the end of the day I found myself in a nice summer bar by the river, with a Platform colleague. Earlier I went to see the people who had reserved the stage for the canceled theatrical performance. They were not as hostile as I was thinking, taking into consideration that I prevented them in the last minute. It seemed that it was something that had happened before. This was a great relief for me.

But it was not the topic I discussed with this co-organizer as we ordered a glass of rosé. It was my approach on B, my favorite guy these days. According to this collegue, I needed to be more feminine and sweet. She told me I have something of an amazone that could scare this guy. That even when I smile, it is as if I were ready for war.

Well, I have always liked the amazones, Diana and many other women deities who seemed to be active. But I wouldn’t like to scare away the men I am interested in. Would I give B the impression of being someone who is menacing? I should show B according to my colleague, how sweet I can be. Let him be the man.

I wanted to ask some male friends, especially some older ones with a lot of experience on women, what is their impression. But the ones I had in mind were not in Paris.

What if I am a dynamic woman? Who is sexy, but also active? And who, at the same time is sweet and a little bit afraid of relationships? Mmm I don’t know.

I have to admit that my friend’s analysis left me very perplexed. The way we act has to do with what we think, feel, afraid, are used to do, …

After all, is the sweet woman, so much different than the amazone and the goddess?

What if they were just dimensions of one and the same feminine condition?

http://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amazones